Closed-File

It's time to come to an end, for de incident..
Closed-file~!

I'd been so damn tired of figurin out who;s in guilty nor innocent..
It's ENOUGH!
I dun wish to talk bout it anymorez!

Well well, i dun wana waste any time on tis so called 'small matter'..
As to many of them out there~~
Might b thinkin tat i like to ZOOM IN on small case~
If u ever put urself in my point of view,
i'm pretty sure tat u wont jux accept it like tat~!

De reveal-ed of my so P&C top secret is reali a fact tat's hard for me to accept it..
But, i'll still ve to try my bex to accpet tis non-changable fact rite?!

Tat's y..

Duh.. Anythin.. Watever..
I reali kz no more~
I jux dun wana fake in front of any1 else~
Is reali so damn pressurin to live like tis~
Hate tat feelinz~!

I wana live as how i am~
I'm emo~!
So wat..?!
Tat's me~!
I dun like to act / fake~!

De most i'll do is jux hide my feelinz tat shudnt b xpress out in public..
Tat's all~
Not any crime tat could hurt any1 rite?!

I reali prefer to ve my feelin-xpress zone in ENG~~
But, MANDARIN make me feel warm too~~
Hahax..
Mayb i'll update both 2gather?!

> <"

So free huh..?!

I wana 'decorate' my blog~~
To make it look more lively & cutie~!!

Re-Activate..?

Hmmm..
I guess, i'm feelin much more better~

But still, i nid more time to fully recover from tat pain
Tat i'd gone through from de incident~

I doubt if i shud re-activate my blog in Eng command..
As, my level is still below par~

But yet, i think i shudnt jux giv up like tis..
Mayb from time to time,
i could improve my writtin skillz?
Who noes..?

I chat wif Zhen for kinda a long time for 2day~
Well, she's reali a nice fren to ve~!

She told me tat she wana own a blog as well~
So, i recommended her to start her own lil world here~

Hehex..
& tis make me feel like to re-activate my blog here~
Even if i noe, Ika wont b folo-in..
As, she's so so so BUSY wif her studies~~

Haiz..
So long din hear from her..
So many thingz tat i'd gone through,
w/o her noe-in..

Ika, sum1 bullied me so badly..
& i'm so damn hurt..

U mux pray for me..
Wishin tat i could recover from it asap ya!

I wish u all de bex in ur studies too~~

Suppose, tis blog is mean for u!

So, i wish u can update urself wif me from time to time..

Miss ya~~~
Muackz!!!

H~0~P~3

Well well~
It suppose to b a study day for me,
as my Sem break oledi ended..
But then..
Thx to my BM lecturer who changed de timetable..
Thus, i nid not to attend any class on Thurs anymorez ^^
It'd changed to Tues..
But v'll ve 3 hourz break in btween if not mistaken > <

Long break againz~~
Meanz, v'll hang out @ KLCC more??
Gosh~~ No way!!

My parentz had oledi warn me not to spent too much from now~
As i'm gettin my car..
So, v'll ve to spent more wisely..
It's hard~!!
As nowadayz, i find myself crazy over some branded product > <

Haiz..
Girlz girlz ~~~
I'm born to b a girlz~
& tat's y..
I luv shoppin~!!
Cant help it~!
U noe, as a girl..
There's lotz of stuff tat can easily make us fall in luv wif it @ 1st sight~
Ohohohoho~~~
Handbagz.. Cosmetic productz.. Accessories.. Clothz..
A lotz more fancy, cutie, poppy, pinky...
So so...
I'd find myself lack of $$ to spent,
as i'm not takin any part-time job..

Pocket money, is not for me to spent as how i like~
Tat's my parents money..
If i do use them to buy watever i like, i'm pretty sure tat it'll never b enough..
& my parentz will b ON FIRE after noe-in bout tat~!!

Thus, i'm plannin to take up a job..
But, i'm kinda worry..
Tat it'll pull down my performance academically..

But if i do ve xtra cash, i can use it to reward myself..
By buyin smth i desire for..
&..
Mayb i can use them to attend some classes..?
& make a visit to Indon??
Can go for beauty saloon more frequently?
Go for facial treatment? Or pedicure + manicure??

Tat's wat most girlz do rite?!
But not me..
Too bad~

I've a dreamz~
Which i think it's almost impossible to b achieved..
Mayb to sum of u there..
I might b jux a jerk..
Thinkin tat i'm insane & unrealistic to ve such stupid dreamz~

but i jux cant hold myself for goin for it~
I'd been so regretted tat i'd miss de chance to...
Nvm..
Nez year? Mayb??

Hahax..
I wish by tat time, i can find sum buddies who share de same dreamz wif me~
So 2gather v can work hard towards our goalz~
To make our dreamz not a dreamz anymore~!

I'd 'discover' a guy from my course..
Mr.N from JOHOR~ =D
Shud i reali go & talk to him??
& make frendz?
Tat's jux not me > <
U shud noe tat i dun ve de courage~~

But..
I reali wish tat i could learn smth from him..
I noe, i can gain some knowledge from him~!
Tat's pretty sure!!

& now..
I'll cross my hand..
Prayin hard for ASH~~
Wishin tat he can make it to b de 1st from de very new UNTIMATE POWER GROUP~!

Mux support him ya!
Ash from StarBoyz~!!
Gambateh +u +u ++u~~~

New hp ~ *YyeeaahH*

Yeah~!!
At last..
I'd got my new hp after waited for bout 10 monthz~ *Zzz*

Last weekz, my lil bro's hp spoil > <''
& he planned to use his ang pow $$ to buy himself a new one!

As for me, mine hp spoil in May 08..
But i dun wish to use any of my own $$ to buy a hp~
It's all bcox i din take up any part-time job..
If i do use my own $$, then..
*AarrgghH*

Alrite, i admit..
I;m stingy~! Kz..?
But if u think from another point of view, i'm jux savin for my own future ^^
Dun u agree wif me..? *Hahaz*

Well well...
Pink colour~!
If u r my frenz, u shud noe tat's my style!

My laptop.. PINK!
My pwn camera-to-be, shud b in PINK too~!
My iPod tat i wan, PINK~!
My everythin, i wish to b PINK~!
& so to my hp~!

I wan a W580i Hp since last year~!
& now..
I'd got it.. At last!!

Oh yeah..
I noe, it's not any stylish, grand, multi-function, branded..
It's not a so expensive phone though..
But, i jux LUV IT!
Y..?
Bcox it's available in PINK~!
*Wahahahhahah*

Not crazy..
But, i kinda like it designed too ^^

& my lil bro bought de same phone as I ^^

I wish tat tis phone could serve me for longer~
Cox i duno when's de nex dream hp of mine will pop out~!

I'm not bein greedy to ve new & stylish + expensive hp~
Cox i noe, tat'll oni burden my parents~!!

So so..
I jux wish to ve 'feel' 2ward de hp i like~
O else..
I wont take tender k of it, mayb..

Daddy, Mummy..
I noe u guyz r tryin ur bex to fullfill me!!
I noe tat..
& i appreciate watever u guyz did for me..
I noe it takes u guyz a lot of sacrifices jux to make me happy..
Thx, Daddy & Mummy!!
I LOVE U, DAD & MOM!

I promise, i'll study hard~!
For de nez Sem..
Sem 3~!
& even harder for my upcomin semesta~!

Muackz muackz MzuuaacckkzZ *Smoochies*

*doubt*

I'm bein determined to improve myself so suddenly when i cant force myself to sleep againz last nitez~

Since de day i'd completed my Sem 2 examination..
Then start my sem break wif CNY celebration~!

After my last paper on 3 Feb, and few days after tat..
Most of my classmate went bac to their hometown~

So..
No more group activity to hang out~
No more yumcha.. No more shoppin.. No more movie.. No more sing k..
Hahax..
Can u imagine how dull de life is without all these activities..?

As usual, i b de 'gud gurl' at home..
'Enjoyin myself' wif my laptop..
sleep, eat, play..
I tried to plan some activities and some target to b achieved..
But Ooppzz > <

Paiseh la..
I din reali follow.. = =''

I wana to.. *Shhh.. secret*
If u were to noe accidentally, plz keep it as a secret ya for me ^^

My workin plan has been cancelled..
Due to transport problem..
I dun wish to walk to work anymorez~!
No more takin public transport (KTM) to work~!
Cox i've to wake up few hours earlier~
Then wait for de train for up to hours mayb > <
It's such a waste of time..
& money.. & energy~!

Last time i did it, bcox of frendz ^^
Now, no more frendz there..
So, y shud i make a stupid decision to work there??

Last nitez..
I feel so energetic..
Sleepless nitez..
& i try to get some books to read~
Too bad, cant find any > <
Reali regreted tat i din buy de PRINCESS STORY novel tat day~!!
If not, i would have got some materials to read..

Duno y, i'm so wana to improve my command of english so much~
Mayb bcox of her??
Her blog.. Make me feel kinda envy of her life~
To born wif silver spoon in her mouth..
Then she get watever she wana ve~
Meetin all frendz from de higher class of society~

Wow.. I reali ve some strong weird feelinz come from de bottom of my heart~
How i wish tat i were de lucky one~
She's borned pretty, rich..
But, she's not as good as compared to me academically..

Oh well..
Tat's de reason y make me wana work harder..
So tat i could ve a better life in de future??
& so yet for my nex generation wif my love's one??
Hahax.. It sounds funny~!

& another him..
Make me wana take up a course in tat academic center so much?
But i shud ve understand tat my parents may not able to afford de cost~
Wat shud i do??

Shud i jux forget bout it?
Is my main intention to improve myself?
Or.. Somebody else?
I'm not so sure...
*doubt*

R@ND0M p0$T

After all.. Happie Valentine's Dayz~!
It's been so long for me to neglect my lovely blogspot here > <>It's not my 1st time to giv 'busy' as de xcuse for not updatin my blog..

But, mayb is reali true?
I'd been busy to deal wif sadness.. = =''
& try to make it for all de activities my frenz held..
Shoppin, Watchin movie, BBQ, Sing K, group study ( oni de day b4 exam)..
Lolx..
To make oneself busy is de bex way to forget bout smth??
Izit true?!
supposingly, i disagree~!

But..
Tat's seem to b de oni way for me to get over it..
To ve my new life..

Frendz frendz..
Cant b for u owayz..
Tat's y still.. I nid to b independent!

For de sem break now..
Is hell ya BORED!!!
Frendz, went bac to their home sweet home~~
Some, stay in KL~
But..
I rejected de kind invitation of them to ask me out ALONE~!
I dun wish any misunderstand of our simple relationship to bcum complicated~
I jux wana b frenz wif them~!

So sorry..
Mayb, accordin to de horoscope, v mayb likely to bcum couples..
But.. I jux dun ve de feelinz for eu..
U noe, i appreciate ur help..
& so glad tat i've u as my frenz~!
Who willin to help me, by givin me a lift ^^
Muackz~ *a kiss of appreciation*

I wish..
U could let go of de feelin for me asap~
So tat v could enjoy in all de activities v gonna held soon after de break!

Nex upcomin activity >> Sunway Trip!

~2nd weekz of Sem 2~

Time flies~~~
Is oledi 1 week...
Hmmm.. Tis is de 1st week of de Sem 2~
As all de sub is generally starts from tis weekz..

As for tis weekx...
Duno y my eyes get infected for bout 2 times as i wear de con.. > <
So sad ler.. Makes me cant wear my con for some of de dayz...
U noe, i've difficulty wearin de spec as it keeps comin down~
& i nid to adjust it againz 7 againz.. *frustrated*
Especially on Fri, when i'd my Drawing class...
V r havin de class in a room of technical drawingz tables~
I'd got my place..
After settle down, puttin my bagz, bookz, files..
On a chair bside my seat... *i steal it from some1 else as he'd gt xtra*
Then v start to draw all de 8mm & 3mm lines on de A3 size paper~
Guess wat.. V'd to do LETTERING A-Z & 0-9~
Wat de heck..?!
Is so funny nia~~~
V r oledi 18... Y muz v do all tis childish stuff wo..?! *i wonder*
Huh huH..
I'd face lots of difficulty drawing all de horizontal & vertical straight lines..
U noe, even if v'd de T-ruler + set-square, is still so so difficult to construct de lines~~ Mayb bcox i'm reali not prox at all~ Haiz...
I keep erasin & erasin over & over againz...
Till mt eraser bcumin smaller & smaller..
& it's torn into 3 small pieces.. > <
I feel annoyed wif de stupid fellow from class E1~
Those irratating guyz.. Huh.. I reali feel ashamed to b their classmate~
They keep mimic girls' voice to scream when any1 of our stuff drop~
Zzz.. LAMER!!!
They even mimic my voice ler~!!!
when de lecturer is tain de attendance...
she called my name.. They helped me to answer...
STUPID FELLOW~!!! BUZZ BUZZ BUZZ OFF~~~~~
I reali hated them a lotz...
Tat's y i dun wana join then for de GENTING TRIP...
Hmmmm.. Then at last.. I'm able to control my emotion..
To keep myself calm by hummin songz... *Hehex*
Then i'm able to construct de guide lines for de 1st courseowrk
De other 1, i guess i'll ve to DIY @ home~

For tis weekz, i'd spent my time 2gather wif all de E2 gangz~
Thurs, v'll celebratin LP bday in Canteen 2 durin de break time..
V'd bought a cake & v'll ve a small celebration wif her~
May her wishes come true ^^

On Weds, de stupid CAD class cancelled suddenly...
As all lecturerz r busy havin meetin on de exam grade~
So.. Suppose de class is from 3-5pm, then de nex classs starts @ 7pm~
Suppose v'd 2 hours break after de class...
Now v'd a time from 3-7pm in college~!!!!!
Arrgghh.. WTH..? I come all de way jux for tis class..
Now i cant go bac as my dad ve meetin & is not able to fetch me bac~
I came 1 hour earlier somemore... T.T
After v gather in Canteen 2... Then v suggested to go to KLCC~
So whole bunch of us from E2 + few from E1 went to KLCC~
V took taxiz to de LRT station..
Then v head to KLCC... All 2gather 15 of us ^^ *lolx*
Then v'd our lunch @ a TAIWANESE restaurant~
Suppose v wana eat @ Kim Gary... But.. De shop is closed > <
Guess it's bankrupt d ~ *i wonder y*
De time when v r goin bac...
2 fellow was left @ KLCC STATION...
They missed de train > <
V realised tat KK is not wif us oni when de doors bout to close...
&.. When bout reachin college's... Oni v realised tat SY is not wif us too..
Tat's wat so good bout a big gangz...
U'll never noe who's missin~~~ *SCARY*
Then they make a joke...
Sayin tat luckily i'm not de 1 who's left bhind...
O else i'll sure b cryin... =X I guess so..
I'll b cryin like a baby is a gangz of friendz suddenly dumped me..
I 4get whose de 1 sayin it ler..
Mayb is Kenthy aka PANDA.. lolx..
It's rainin heavily le when v reached de LRT station nearby our school..
V waited for de other 2 of our friendz who's left out..
Then v waited for Taxiz @ de bus station..
V nid 4 Taxis... So v waited & waited...
But some1 else 'd grab awayz our Taxis..
So.. For de nez Taxis, Kenthy had go to get it for us..
He went into de rain..
Opened de doorz, talked to de driver...
Told him our destiny...
Then he asked de girlz to get on...
He opened de door for us...
I'm so touched by wat he'd did~ Such a gentleman...
Hmm.. I'm glad to ve such a wonderful frendz..
E2 guyz & gurlz rox.. E1 guyz sux.. =p
Then finally, v reached college safely...
& v waited for de otherz to come at M block, where our classroom will b...
OMG... He's totally wet~!!!
Pity him ler..
Then some of my friendz go & get our bookz, bagz, files... From SH's carz..
V'd left our stuff in his car as it's too heavy for us to bring along... *hehex*
Then 2gather, v head to de classroom..
It's so surprised tat F group is combinin wif us as they wish to end their class earlier~
I dun like it~!!!!
It makes us cant concentrate as more ppl stuff in a small classroom...
Luckily i manage to get a place at de front..
Sittin wif baobei & PL...
De stupid tutor asked me to do de quest 5 on de board..
So i go for it after comfirmin my answer wif my friendz..
Who noe when i'm writin my answer time...
De tutor said:'' Tat's answer on de board.. It's de same wif urs?""''
I told him tat i get e answer on my own & it's exactly de same as on de board, done by de previous group of student...
Then he asked me to go bac & sit... Zzz
Stupid tutor~!!
He never teach us anythin...
& no doubt, he duno how to teach~~
Guess i'll b failin tis Sub, BUILDIN SERVICES..
Which it's some sort like Physic...
Hope tat KK, de prox can help me ler > <

Tues, i went to BaoBei's house & ve a nap... hehex...
I feel so happy as i'd get de chance to go to my friend's house..
I bathed there b4 i've my nap...
& i'd change into her clothes..
Hmmmm.. Feelin warm...
I sleep wof her on de bed at de right end while she sleep outside on de left..
I'm huggin 1 of her doggie soft toys..
while she's huggin her pillow..
She's a nice friend to ve ^^ Her BODY SHOP Strawberry Body Gel Polish smell so nice!!! I LOVE IT ^^
But it's too expensive for me to own it...
4get bout tat le..

Mon, suppose i'm goin bac home...
My dad come & pick me up durin de break time..
Who noes..
V'd suddenly decided to go & buy de drawing set...
De shop is located in Kepong..
So my dad fetch me & de sisters to go there lor..
& SH, 2gather wif LP, KK & Shy Yan..
V went to buy de stuff for all of us...
Hmmm.. It's such a tirin dayz...
As goin bac to college time, 7 of us stuff into a WIRA, SH's car..
My dad is not able to fetch us bac to college...
I've to sit on Lp's lapz..
Feel so sorry for her..
I noe tat i'm not reali light...
V'd our lunch @ de food court near my house..
Then v head on to college to attend our lecture..
I cant concentrate at all..
as my Hp got prob, cant msg wif him..
I noe sure tat he's worry, unhappy, feelin bein neglected, lonely...
& i'm too tired of de dayz..
Well well, bad newx...
Mon Mathz lecture time is changed to 5.30-7.30pm~
Meanz i'm goin bac 30 min laterz..
& ve 30 min more for de long break in btween..
I dun kz ler..
I wana go bac home & sleep~~~
O at least..
Friendz, may i go to ur guyz house & ve a nap..? plz...


Tat's de summary of my 2nd week for Sem 2 ^^