My apologize..

I'm surprised..
When suddenly he chat wif me.. In MSN~

It's been so long, for us to ve ZERO-INTERACTION after all~
Since v bac from de enjoyable & unforgettable trip..

Let's bac to de moment now, rather than talkin bot de pass..
Againz & againz...

V chat normally, like de conversation v used to ve b4~

Since, he's actin like nth happen..
So, shud i~~
Wif no choice..

I'm wonderin, if i shud APOLOGIZE.. To him..
For troublin him by bump-in into him..
I'd tried to pull myself out from lovin him..
But, too bad.. I FAILED~!!

So sorry..
If i reali do giv u a big trouble by fallin for u~
I dun mean to..

But, de tonz of SORRY from de bottom of my heart tat i wished to deliver to u,
I MEAN IT..

Closed-File

It's time to come to an end, for de incident..
Closed-file~!

I'd been so damn tired of figurin out who;s in guilty nor innocent..
It's ENOUGH!
I dun wish to talk bout it anymorez!

Well well, i dun wana waste any time on tis so called 'small matter'..
As to many of them out there~~
Might b thinkin tat i like to ZOOM IN on small case~
If u ever put urself in my point of view,
i'm pretty sure tat u wont jux accept it like tat~!

De reveal-ed of my so P&C top secret is reali a fact tat's hard for me to accept it..
But, i'll still ve to try my bex to accpet tis non-changable fact rite?!

Tat's y..

Duh.. Anythin.. Watever..
I reali kz no more~
I jux dun wana fake in front of any1 else~
Is reali so damn pressurin to live like tis~
Hate tat feelinz~!

I wana live as how i am~
I'm emo~!
So wat..?!
Tat's me~!
I dun like to act / fake~!

De most i'll do is jux hide my feelinz tat shudnt b xpress out in public..
Tat's all~
Not any crime tat could hurt any1 rite?!

I reali prefer to ve my feelin-xpress zone in ENG~~
But, MANDARIN make me feel warm too~~
Hahax..
Mayb i'll update both 2gather?!

> <"

So free huh..?!

I wana 'decorate' my blog~~
To make it look more lively & cutie~!!

Re-Activate..?

Hmmm..
I guess, i'm feelin much more better~

But still, i nid more time to fully recover from tat pain
Tat i'd gone through from de incident~

I doubt if i shud re-activate my blog in Eng command..
As, my level is still below par~

But yet, i think i shudnt jux giv up like tis..
Mayb from time to time,
i could improve my writtin skillz?
Who noes..?

I chat wif Zhen for kinda a long time for 2day~
Well, she's reali a nice fren to ve~!

She told me tat she wana own a blog as well~
So, i recommended her to start her own lil world here~

Hehex..
& tis make me feel like to re-activate my blog here~
Even if i noe, Ika wont b folo-in..
As, she's so so so BUSY wif her studies~~

Haiz..
So long din hear from her..
So many thingz tat i'd gone through,
w/o her noe-in..

Ika, sum1 bullied me so badly..
& i'm so damn hurt..

U mux pray for me..
Wishin tat i could recover from it asap ya!

I wish u all de bex in ur studies too~~

Suppose, tis blog is mean for u!

So, i wish u can update urself wif me from time to time..

Miss ya~~~
Muackz!!!

H~0~P~3

Well well~
It suppose to b a study day for me,
as my Sem break oledi ended..
But then..
Thx to my BM lecturer who changed de timetable..
Thus, i nid not to attend any class on Thurs anymorez ^^
It'd changed to Tues..
But v'll ve 3 hourz break in btween if not mistaken > <

Long break againz~~
Meanz, v'll hang out @ KLCC more??
Gosh~~ No way!!

My parentz had oledi warn me not to spent too much from now~
As i'm gettin my car..
So, v'll ve to spent more wisely..
It's hard~!!
As nowadayz, i find myself crazy over some branded product > <

Haiz..
Girlz girlz ~~~
I'm born to b a girlz~
& tat's y..
I luv shoppin~!!
Cant help it~!
U noe, as a girl..
There's lotz of stuff tat can easily make us fall in luv wif it @ 1st sight~
Ohohohoho~~~
Handbagz.. Cosmetic productz.. Accessories.. Clothz..
A lotz more fancy, cutie, poppy, pinky...
So so...
I'd find myself lack of $$ to spent,
as i'm not takin any part-time job..

Pocket money, is not for me to spent as how i like~
Tat's my parents money..
If i do use them to buy watever i like, i'm pretty sure tat it'll never b enough..
& my parentz will b ON FIRE after noe-in bout tat~!!

Thus, i'm plannin to take up a job..
But, i'm kinda worry..
Tat it'll pull down my performance academically..

But if i do ve xtra cash, i can use it to reward myself..
By buyin smth i desire for..
&..
Mayb i can use them to attend some classes..?
& make a visit to Indon??
Can go for beauty saloon more frequently?
Go for facial treatment? Or pedicure + manicure??

Tat's wat most girlz do rite?!
But not me..
Too bad~

I've a dreamz~
Which i think it's almost impossible to b achieved..
Mayb to sum of u there..
I might b jux a jerk..
Thinkin tat i'm insane & unrealistic to ve such stupid dreamz~

but i jux cant hold myself for goin for it~
I'd been so regretted tat i'd miss de chance to...
Nvm..
Nez year? Mayb??

Hahax..
I wish by tat time, i can find sum buddies who share de same dreamz wif me~
So 2gather v can work hard towards our goalz~
To make our dreamz not a dreamz anymore~!

I'd 'discover' a guy from my course..
Mr.N from JOHOR~ =D
Shud i reali go & talk to him??
& make frendz?
Tat's jux not me > <
U shud noe tat i dun ve de courage~~

But..
I reali wish tat i could learn smth from him..
I noe, i can gain some knowledge from him~!
Tat's pretty sure!!

& now..
I'll cross my hand..
Prayin hard for ASH~~
Wishin tat he can make it to b de 1st from de very new UNTIMATE POWER GROUP~!

Mux support him ya!
Ash from StarBoyz~!!
Gambateh +u +u ++u~~~

New hp ~ *YyeeaahH*

Yeah~!!
At last..
I'd got my new hp after waited for bout 10 monthz~ *Zzz*

Last weekz, my lil bro's hp spoil > <''
& he planned to use his ang pow $$ to buy himself a new one!

As for me, mine hp spoil in May 08..
But i dun wish to use any of my own $$ to buy a hp~
It's all bcox i din take up any part-time job..
If i do use my own $$, then..
*AarrgghH*

Alrite, i admit..
I;m stingy~! Kz..?
But if u think from another point of view, i'm jux savin for my own future ^^
Dun u agree wif me..? *Hahaz*

Well well...
Pink colour~!
If u r my frenz, u shud noe tat's my style!

My laptop.. PINK!
My pwn camera-to-be, shud b in PINK too~!
My iPod tat i wan, PINK~!
My everythin, i wish to b PINK~!
& so to my hp~!

I wan a W580i Hp since last year~!
& now..
I'd got it.. At last!!

Oh yeah..
I noe, it's not any stylish, grand, multi-function, branded..
It's not a so expensive phone though..
But, i jux LUV IT!
Y..?
Bcox it's available in PINK~!
*Wahahahhahah*

Not crazy..
But, i kinda like it designed too ^^

& my lil bro bought de same phone as I ^^

I wish tat tis phone could serve me for longer~
Cox i duno when's de nex dream hp of mine will pop out~!

I'm not bein greedy to ve new & stylish + expensive hp~
Cox i noe, tat'll oni burden my parents~!!

So so..
I jux wish to ve 'feel' 2ward de hp i like~
O else..
I wont take tender k of it, mayb..

Daddy, Mummy..
I noe u guyz r tryin ur bex to fullfill me!!
I noe tat..
& i appreciate watever u guyz did for me..
I noe it takes u guyz a lot of sacrifices jux to make me happy..
Thx, Daddy & Mummy!!
I LOVE U, DAD & MOM!

I promise, i'll study hard~!
For de nez Sem..
Sem 3~!
& even harder for my upcomin semesta~!

Muackz muackz MzuuaacckkzZ *Smoochies*

*doubt*

I'm bein determined to improve myself so suddenly when i cant force myself to sleep againz last nitez~

Since de day i'd completed my Sem 2 examination..
Then start my sem break wif CNY celebration~!

After my last paper on 3 Feb, and few days after tat..
Most of my classmate went bac to their hometown~

So..
No more group activity to hang out~
No more yumcha.. No more shoppin.. No more movie.. No more sing k..
Hahax..
Can u imagine how dull de life is without all these activities..?

As usual, i b de 'gud gurl' at home..
'Enjoyin myself' wif my laptop..
sleep, eat, play..
I tried to plan some activities and some target to b achieved..
But Ooppzz > <

Paiseh la..
I din reali follow.. = =''

I wana to.. *Shhh.. secret*
If u were to noe accidentally, plz keep it as a secret ya for me ^^

My workin plan has been cancelled..
Due to transport problem..
I dun wish to walk to work anymorez~!
No more takin public transport (KTM) to work~!
Cox i've to wake up few hours earlier~
Then wait for de train for up to hours mayb > <
It's such a waste of time..
& money.. & energy~!

Last time i did it, bcox of frendz ^^
Now, no more frendz there..
So, y shud i make a stupid decision to work there??

Last nitez..
I feel so energetic..
Sleepless nitez..
& i try to get some books to read~
Too bad, cant find any > <
Reali regreted tat i din buy de PRINCESS STORY novel tat day~!!
If not, i would have got some materials to read..

Duno y, i'm so wana to improve my command of english so much~
Mayb bcox of her??
Her blog.. Make me feel kinda envy of her life~
To born wif silver spoon in her mouth..
Then she get watever she wana ve~
Meetin all frendz from de higher class of society~

Wow.. I reali ve some strong weird feelinz come from de bottom of my heart~
How i wish tat i were de lucky one~
She's borned pretty, rich..
But, she's not as good as compared to me academically..

Oh well..
Tat's de reason y make me wana work harder..
So tat i could ve a better life in de future??
& so yet for my nex generation wif my love's one??
Hahax.. It sounds funny~!

& another him..
Make me wana take up a course in tat academic center so much?
But i shud ve understand tat my parents may not able to afford de cost~
Wat shud i do??

Shud i jux forget bout it?
Is my main intention to improve myself?
Or.. Somebody else?
I'm not so sure...
*doubt*

R@ND0M p0$T

After all.. Happie Valentine's Dayz~!
It's been so long for me to neglect my lovely blogspot here > <>It's not my 1st time to giv 'busy' as de xcuse for not updatin my blog..

But, mayb is reali true?
I'd been busy to deal wif sadness.. = =''
& try to make it for all de activities my frenz held..
Shoppin, Watchin movie, BBQ, Sing K, group study ( oni de day b4 exam)..
Lolx..
To make oneself busy is de bex way to forget bout smth??
Izit true?!
supposingly, i disagree~!

But..
Tat's seem to b de oni way for me to get over it..
To ve my new life..

Frendz frendz..
Cant b for u owayz..
Tat's y still.. I nid to b independent!

For de sem break now..
Is hell ya BORED!!!
Frendz, went bac to their home sweet home~~
Some, stay in KL~
But..
I rejected de kind invitation of them to ask me out ALONE~!
I dun wish any misunderstand of our simple relationship to bcum complicated~
I jux wana b frenz wif them~!

So sorry..
Mayb, accordin to de horoscope, v mayb likely to bcum couples..
But.. I jux dun ve de feelinz for eu..
U noe, i appreciate ur help..
& so glad tat i've u as my frenz~!
Who willin to help me, by givin me a lift ^^
Muackz~ *a kiss of appreciation*

I wish..
U could let go of de feelin for me asap~
So tat v could enjoy in all de activities v gonna held soon after de break!

Nex upcomin activity >> Sunway Trip!